At peace...

I remember this exact time last year (March 2012) I was feeling so guilty.  I couldn't believe how stretched thin I was as a mother.  I thought I had "robbed" my kids of my time as I welcomed another baby into our family.  I felt especially worried about our middle son, Jack.  He was so young when we welcomed Grant that he was forced to grow up a bit faster.  Depend on me a little bit less.  I felt so bad for him.  That mommy guilt always has a way of creeping in.

But now I am 100% AT PEACE with our decision to expand our family.  EXACTLY one year later (March 2013) look at my boys.  No guilt here what so ever.  I am feeling overjoyed with peace and love.  I don't see a mother that is stretched too thin.  I see a mother that is so extremely happy and adores the growing friendship between her sons.  I didn't rob Jack of anything.  I feel I have only enhanced his childhood with a brother.  A buddy.  A playmate.  A lifelong friend.  These two have grown so close and little Grant blends right in with Jack now.  He can keep up.  And Jack is filling the role of Big Brother with ease.

I catch these two ALWAYS playing in Jack's bedroom.  The are always together.  Always into something....

They just melt me.  My little boys.  Who don't even look a thing a like - but do share the same brotherhood bond.